Walking My Faith Journey
To
God be the glory! I must proclaim what He has done, what He is doing, and what
He will continue to do as I walk this faith journey on earth.
I
have come to a place in my life where I depend completely on God. I no longer
believe that I am in control of my own life.
Seven
months ago, my sweet daughter, Stephanie, was tragically taken in a car
accident. Not long after her passing, I sat in my recliner, overwhelmed and
asking myself, What am I going to do now? In that quiet moment, the Lord
spoke clearly to my heart. He showed me something I hadn’t wanted to see: I had
placed all my trust and dependence on Stephanie.
You
see, I had moved just to be near her. We had planned that she would care for me
in my older years. She was a nurse, she knew my health history, and she always
went with me to my appointments. She kept up with me in ways only a daughter
could.
So
when Stephanie died, I felt lost—anxious, nervous, and uncertain about my
future. I thought without her, I couldn’t go on. But one evening, as I cried
and worried, the Lord gently but firmly revealed the truth: I had made an idol
of my daughter. It wasn’t Stephanie who took care of me—it was Him.
In
that moment, I heard in my spirit, “O you of little faith!” I was stunned, but I
knew it was true. I repented, ashamed of having placed my faith in the wrong
place. Yet that revelation opened my eyes. God reminded me that He alone is in
control of the universe. He gives, and He takes away.
That
day I began to claim the promise of Psalm 23:1:
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.”
Looking
back over my life, I see how true this has been. I’ve always had what I
needed—spiritually rich, blessed beyond measure—all because of God’s grace,
generosity, mercy, and love.
From
that day forward, I began to lift my eyes to Him. I praise the Lord for His
goodness, His care, His mercy, and His unfailing love.
Romans
15:13 has become my anchor:
“I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and
peace because you trust in Him.”
Over
the past seven months, I’ve walked through sorrow, anger, fear, and
uncertainty. There were days when grief made me physically sick. But God’s Word
has carried me.
Now
I can say with confidence:
- I have hope
for a spiritually rich future.
- I have joy
because God hears and answers my prayers.
- I have peace
about Stephanie’s death, knowing she was saved and baptized—and that I
will see her again one day.
- I have trust
that the Lord will guide me each step of the way.
That
is enough for me to keep walking this journey until the Lord calls me home.
Amen.
Is there an idol in your life that keeps you from depending fully on God? Pray that if there is, He will show you so you can see the truth.
